insomniac by choice

i dread the moment when i'm about to sleep (laying on my bed with my eyes focused on the ceiling). by then i get to think about the things that i don't want to think about. like how lonely i get at night( which i think will probably be forever). and then my heart starts to feel that dreadful feeling.. hurt. i just keep myself busy until i finally am too sleepy to do anything else so that when i climb up to my bed i'd go right to sleep.

i'm confused, torn, sad, insecure, angry, lonely and i feel like crying all the time. am i pathetic or what? i think so. i'm gonna sleep now... and hope to dream beautiful dreams..

the old days

i went out with my highschool friends last night namely lesley, gelai, kookey and some of their classmates. Occassion: Gelai's bellydancing recital at MTS. Whoever said that bellydancing was an art to seduce men was definitely right. After the girl's usual ranting about their boyfriends and all, we went to eat at Penongs! Unfortunately for my stomach, the place was packed with people so we decided to eat at Flyover Ihaw2x na lang. Then again, the place was packed with people too! So we ate at the nearest restaurant.. Chowking! Funny things happened. Some "manyakis" kept peering through the window and ogling at my not-so-conservative friends. Gelai was kinda drunk or she hoped she was. Long story. Lesley and Kookey were practically scared. haha. After that, I went home. The End.

sleepy

woke up pretty early today. 8am! really. i'm getting pretty addicted to this blogging thing. how do people get to read other people's blogs anyway? it's not that I want people to read this anyway.

sleepless

can't sleep.. my insomia's acting up again.. decided to bore myself to sleep. wish me luck!

wake-up call

i thought i'd do something that's worth my time instead of just playing computer games. so.. this is my first time blogging. let's see.. well.. i woke up 2pm kanina.. (it's summer and all) After eating a very heavy brunch + early dinner i decided to sit on my hardly comfy coffee chair and proceeded to waste my day by playing "Atelier Iris - Eternal Mana" - an adventure game on the PS2. Good thing my mom called me or I would've stayed in my room all afternoon. Anyways, I became the temp driver cause the regular driver had something to do. Fastforward to McDonald's... i ate food.. (what else is there to do?Ü) blah blah blah. And.. here I am.. finishing up my first post. wow. I actually did something worthwhile! anyways, i gonna customize my blogpage now. later.