i dread the moment when i'm about to sleep (laying on my bed with my eyes focused on the ceiling). by then i get to think about the things that i don't want to think about. like how lonely i get at night( which i think will probably be forever). and then my heart starts to feel that dreadful feeling.. hurt. i just keep myself busy until i finally am too sleepy to do anything else so that when i climb up to my bed i'd go right to sleep.
i'm confused, torn, sad, insecure, angry, lonely and i feel like crying all the time. am i pathetic or what? i think so. i'm gonna sleep now... and hope to dream beautiful dreams..
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